day 196

I just made a discovery that will literally change my life. no exaggeration. For the past few years, and especially last year, I have been getting headaches and dizzy spells and i feel carsick even when im not in the car. I was always super light headed. Anyway, this especially always happened when i was doing school work and i thought it may have been due to looking down and up a lot. Last year i also made the discovery that coffee seemed to help me concentrate, so because it was year 12 and i really needed to concentrate, i started drinking coffee every morning and before SACs and exams. Today, after going out for coffee with mum, I realised that it is in fact the coffee that is making me feel so fricken ill all the time. after realising this, i have two main thoughts:
1, I want to repeat year 12 without coffee and see if it makes a difference to my score.
2, I can never drink coffee again.
Both these things make me sad because I love coffee and I will never know if it would have made a difference to my score. (as you can see I am still a tiny bit hung up about my score.)